At the moment,i am living on hope and only hope.Well,hope and food.Seriously,i don't think anyone would be crazy enough to live on hope only,because i am.In every aspect,friends,love,family,career(most importantly).Faith,plain old faith.Sometimes it makes me want to vomit,this overwhelming feeling,because everything else is blank.I feel like i am in an empty place.It sucks.People,my friends,whoever can easily think i am just being lazy.

I was looking through a few fucked up local production companies on their websites like Dream Forest and all of that.There is a particular phrase they keep emphasising on '1% inspiration,99% perspiration'. They take pride in saying that cos it rhymes is it?Do they not understand that most of them are fucking robots?If you work hard 99% of the time,you can wave goodbye to the whatever small bit of inspiration you had.That's the reason why people like me will never get touched or inspired by their work,EVER. hardwork is important,yes.But quit thinking that if you work hard,then that's it.that's enough.All the actors who hail from these productions are shit.I still strongly believe that you have to be MEANT to do it if you are going to do it.Thank god, i dont hear Tim Burton saying ' 1% inspiration,99% perspiration,people,come on!' God.i feel so angry.And i was reading the actors' Q&A,haha,i can actually copy and paste their answers on to each other's.Their favorite movies were shows like Kung Fu hustle,Superman,Starwars and normal stuff like that.I really wonder why they even joined acting if they got their inspiration from movies like these.and also,there was a question asking about their secrets,each and every one of them said the same thing 'it wont be a secret if i tell you' or ' it's a secret' or ' how can i tell you my secret?' wtf?you know,i have a lot to say....really...a lot....im just damn pissed la.And one jackass said his pet peeves was 'people who have self doubt'.which human doesn't doubt himself ah?wow,his friends must be fucking interesting la being all self righteous and full of themselves.Fuck,you are an actor,your main job is to entertain people,give part of urself to them,and here u are saying 'my pet peeves is people who have self doubt' How can anyone choose to turn away someone because they doubt themselves??i pray to god that i will never have to speak with him.I am DAMN PROUD of my fellow singaporeans la.I would shoot myself if i were on the battlefield fighting for my country.but apart from the people,i really do love Singapore,the island,only because i was born here ,personal attachment shit.