ok so first,i decided to dump my handphone,then i deleted a whole lot of people from msn,stopped talking to most of my close friends,and now it seemed only right to delete my friendster account as well.damn it because of all the older testimonials and all when i was still in school.it's time to let go tho.i have never felt so relieved before.to be honest,i don't need this blog either.i dont find the need to publish my thoughts through a blog.i have my sister for that.haha.give me 5 months,God.i'll show you.for all the other people out there,if you cant live without someone,then fine.just live with it.But stop complaining about it man.get a life.It's only because you dont have other important things to think about or whatever that all you can do is complain about your own damned life.*shows middle finger to random people*.I cant wait to belong somewhere,that's when i would really find peace within myself.and you know,i thank god that i am not His direct disciple or something,because the way 'PEOPLE' talk about god,i could turn into incredible hulk man. i would really shoot all of them first,then talk.fuck.yes,i am very protective of whoever,even God.Bye.

The 27-year-old actress recently commented on the need for male and female equality.
“I’m not competitive with them (actresses). I root for all of them because we definitely don’t have equality with men in this business,” Jessica said.
“There are a lot more men making a lot more money and headlining movies than women, and the more of us who can come up and do that the better. I want my friends to produce, direct, act, write, all of it.”



I laughed inside when i read this.Hollywood is the last place i thought that would have a problem with female and male equality.I don't see Angelina Jolie saying this,because it's not even a problem for her.Move on la.It's quite an embarassment actually,because Jessica Alba is seriously no fucking big deal when it comes to acting and headlining movies.I hate it that she makes this look like a problem because seriously,it isnt. If you want equality between the sexes that bad that u actually had to comment on it,then go do male roles.I'm sure she can't.She settles for stupid roles,she isn't that different or much of an individual.Whatever.I dont see Jodie Foster also talking abt these,only because she is capable of doing masculine roles without making a fool out of herself.Imagine Jessica Alba playing Jodie Foster's role in Panic room or flight plan,or even The Brave One.Bullshit man.Bottom line is don't talk about equality when u cant even deliver!you think what,just cos ur famous and all of that,you can immediately land all those brilliant roles and do a damn good job with it issit?dream on la.you have to be special to do it.

At the moment,i am living on hope and only hope.Well,hope and food.Seriously,i don't think anyone would be crazy enough to live on hope only,because i am.In every aspect,friends,love,family,career(most importantly).Faith,plain old faith.Sometimes it makes me want to vomit,this overwhelming feeling,because everything else is blank.I feel like i am in an empty place.It sucks.People,my friends,whoever can easily think i am just being lazy.

I was looking through a few fucked up local production companies on their websites like Dream Forest and all of that.There is a particular phrase they keep emphasising on '1% inspiration,99% perspiration'. They take pride in saying that cos it rhymes is it?Do they not understand that most of them are fucking robots?If you work hard 99% of the time,you can wave goodbye to the whatever small bit of inspiration you had.That's the reason why people like me will never get touched or inspired by their work,EVER. hardwork is important,yes.But quit thinking that if you work hard,then that's it.that's enough.All the actors who hail from these productions are shit.I still strongly believe that you have to be MEANT to do it if you are going to do it.Thank god, i dont hear Tim Burton saying ' 1% inspiration,99% perspiration,people,come on!' God.i feel so angry.And i was reading the actors' Q&A,haha,i can actually copy and paste their answers on to each other's.Their favorite movies were shows like Kung Fu hustle,Superman,Starwars and normal stuff like that.I really wonder why they even joined acting if they got their inspiration from movies like these.and also,there was a question asking about their secrets,each and every one of them said the same thing 'it wont be a secret if i tell you' or ' it's a secret' or ' how can i tell you my secret?' wtf?you know,i have a lot to say....really...a lot....im just damn pissed la.And one jackass said his pet peeves was 'people who have self doubt'.which human doesn't doubt himself ah?wow,his friends must be fucking interesting la being all self righteous and full of themselves.Fuck,you are an actor,your main job is to entertain people,give part of urself to them,and here u are saying 'my pet peeves is people who have self doubt' How can anyone choose to turn away someone because they doubt themselves??i pray to god that i will never have to speak with him.I am DAMN PROUD of my fellow singaporeans la.I would shoot myself if i were on the battlefield fighting for my country.but apart from the people,i really do love Singapore,the island,only because i was born here ,personal attachment shit.