Asshole,Asshole,Asshole!!

On a lighter note,eh friends,you all don't care about me anymore issit??!

Life is not fair; get used to it.
-Bill Gates

Shut up,Bill Gates.Yes,life is not fair,but don't be immune to it man,because that's when you join the group of people who make life unfuckingfair.That quote really should only be read by kids who whine and whine abt shit problems not for people like me or a couple of people i know.If you get used to this unfairness that's all over the earth,then you become dead.Most of them are dead anyway.Dead people,dont feel necessarily,feel unnecessarily(yes).But you know,come to think of it,maybe he says that cos his face looks like that?in that case,i understand la.

Yesterday night,i was thinking about my Biggest Fears....i have so many fears...my face doesnt show any of them at all..but i have so many fears man...here are my top 4:

1-To Fall in Love-i love being in love with love,dont get me wrong,i love the idea of people helping ,sacrificing for people,comforting each other,friendships and all of that.But to be in love with a stranger?not for me man.it's the scariest shit.i would lose all my beliefs,identity..everything...and then be lost again.I love it when good people fall in love though.very nice.but just not for me.period.

2-To lose something precious-hey this is probably everybody's fear.haha.especially for people like me who hold onto only very few things,people.1 or 2.Life would be good to live without fear eh?like tyler durden(brad pitt) in Fight Club.It's when you lose everything,that you appreciate life.It's when you stop fearing death,that you start to live.normally it works the other way around for people.but i like this better.

3-To be satisfied-hey,being satisfied is the best feeling aka peace within yourself.but not for me man,again.when i get satisfied i become massively lazy and end up being a loser.i got satisfied before and it was horrible,the after effects.as long as i live,i dont want my satisfaction to last for more than an hour.i just want to keep doing things,keep being hungry for things to happen in this world,keep walking and do a couple of jumps in the middle.keep doing different movies,different characters,people...all that jazz.

4-To be not taken seriously-I probably look intimidating or scary now to most people only because i wasnt taken seriously at all when i was younger.i hated being looked at as a joke.i probably sub-conciously made up in my mind that i have had enough of this shit then.i care a lot abt what people think and all,tho it makes me feel fucking uncomfortable,but if they were to not take me seriously,im afraid even i wouldnt take my ownself seriously.hah.that's like the biggest problem in the world,to have a problem with yourself.if that's a problem,u cant even go on to solve any other problems or feed the hungry even.

ok so first,i decided to dump my handphone,then i deleted a whole lot of people from msn,stopped talking to most of my close friends,and now it seemed only right to delete my friendster account as well.damn it because of all the older testimonials and all when i was still in school.it's time to let go tho.i have never felt so relieved before.to be honest,i don't need this blog either.i dont find the need to publish my thoughts through a blog.i have my sister for that.haha.give me 5 months,God.i'll show you.for all the other people out there,if you cant live without someone,then fine.just live with it.But stop complaining about it man.get a life.It's only because you dont have other important things to think about or whatever that all you can do is complain about your own damned life.*shows middle finger to random people*.I cant wait to belong somewhere,that's when i would really find peace within myself.and you know,i thank god that i am not His direct disciple or something,because the way 'PEOPLE' talk about god,i could turn into incredible hulk man. i would really shoot all of them first,then talk.fuck.yes,i am very protective of whoever,even God.Bye.

The 27-year-old actress recently commented on the need for male and female equality.
“I’m not competitive with them (actresses). I root for all of them because we definitely don’t have equality with men in this business,” Jessica said.
“There are a lot more men making a lot more money and headlining movies than women, and the more of us who can come up and do that the better. I want my friends to produce, direct, act, write, all of it.”



I laughed inside when i read this.Hollywood is the last place i thought that would have a problem with female and male equality.I don't see Angelina Jolie saying this,because it's not even a problem for her.Move on la.It's quite an embarassment actually,because Jessica Alba is seriously no fucking big deal when it comes to acting and headlining movies.I hate it that she makes this look like a problem because seriously,it isnt. If you want equality between the sexes that bad that u actually had to comment on it,then go do male roles.I'm sure she can't.She settles for stupid roles,she isn't that different or much of an individual.Whatever.I dont see Jodie Foster also talking abt these,only because she is capable of doing masculine roles without making a fool out of herself.Imagine Jessica Alba playing Jodie Foster's role in Panic room or flight plan,or even The Brave One.Bullshit man.Bottom line is don't talk about equality when u cant even deliver!you think what,just cos ur famous and all of that,you can immediately land all those brilliant roles and do a damn good job with it issit?dream on la.you have to be special to do it.